Failure

Do you ever wake up thinking you're the biggest failure in life? Do you ever look back and realize how there's not one thing you can actually do that you're proud of? Do you ever wake up and think of yourself as an ugly spot on the whole of humankind? The best part, do people constantly tell you how you're a failure and not good enough for anything and anyone? Have you ever been told you can't even be called an underachiever because at least an underachiever has the potential to do well but just don't work to do well? The worst part of all this is that you had been given all the opportunities in the world to do better, but still you landed up becoming a loser.

Welcome to the cruel world.

I guess I just never saw that I was that bad in the past. I always thought I was alright. I believed I had the right ideas, that I was at least on the smarter side. I thought I was a pretty decent writer and poet, though I guess now that people have pointed out how much my stuff sucks, I can't really say that anymore. I considered myself sporty, though I guess I'm not that either as I have realized I'm no good in that. Then there's so much I just wish I had done in my life that I didn't do, and now I feel so awful for not having done them. At least if I would've done them, I could've been able to say I'm good at something, if things turned out well at least.

I guess the biggest mistake I made was thinking I was alright in the first place. So after three years it just hurts to be reminded of how most of my life was a lie, how I was always a loser and never realized it. And what do I have to say about this? I'm tired.