It's been a while since I've written, more due to a lack of topic than lack of time. Lately, I've been sleeping too much, and obviously haven't been studying at all, so time is definitely not a factor. Exams are just around the corner, and I'm still thinking about how I should start studying (the usual pre-exam "trauma" I pass through every time)...
Yesterday morning, I didn't have class until twelve noon, so I was sitting in my room, trying to analyse my personality. I did find many faults which I will have to correct, and along with that, there are many things about my outlook towards life which I have to change.
Let's say five years ago, you'd imagine yourself as you are now, and you'd think of yourself as a very different person than you became. It's all well and good if you became a better person than you thought you'd become, but if you changed for the worse, then it's always a little sad to think about how you let it happen. I guess I can't say that I've completely changed for the worse, yes, I do have some regrets, but I'm working hard to fix them, but what really bugs me is the fact that certain aspects of my personality changed in a very negative manner. Now it's these particular aspects which I want to work on to better myself as a person.
Now as for my outlook towards life, trust me, it's not a happy outlook. I have got to work on getting more self confidence, and work on becoming more optimistic.
I believe that if I really work on the above things (and I say really, because knowing myself, I'll probably put it off for later...procrastination procrastination...), I should get much closer to the person I wanted to become. Any suggestions on how I can work on the above will be appreciated...
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Monday, September 3, 2007
Post Exam Obsessions
We had exams last week and most of my papers didn't go well at all. To make things worse, I made quite a few silly mistakes in my papers as well, but those silly mistakes are going to cost me a lot...
I'm listening to AC/DC right now, I absolutely love this song, Problem Child. It took me a long time to realize how amazing this band really is, which is pretty weird.
I've been watching a Japanese cartoon called Naruto lately. It's become quite an obsession, I love watching the ninjas fight and all. There's one character, Gaara, who happens to be my favorite. He's a really blood-thirsty ninja, who only cares about fighting and killing. His attacks are sand based, and are very very powerful. He's had a really bad past, because of which he's become so evil, but I really like him.
In fact, many of the ninjas have had rough pasts, mostly involving being outcasts, or dropouts, or have demons sealed in them. Gaara and Naruto have demons sealed inside of them, yet the striking difference between the two, one is so evil and quiet and the other so determined and loud. Naruto is a nice character too, I love the fact that he's so determined and never gives up, because of which he can win the most difficult of fights. I also like this other ninja, Rock Lee, who doesn't have any special abilities, but worked hard to get super speed.
I also decided to learn how to play Age of Empires, and have one more tutorial match to play, before I start with real games. It's a much more interesting game than I initially thought it would be. The only thing missing is the blood and guts, but it's good enough without all that.
I've decided that I've wasted enough of my life away doing nothing interesting, and it's about time that I learn to do something worthwhile. This explains my sudden interest in games again, it's been such a long time since I played computer games, and I really miss those days when I would play games all day long (no interesting games, mostly kid games).
I'm listening to AC/DC right now, I absolutely love this song, Problem Child. It took me a long time to realize how amazing this band really is, which is pretty weird.
I've been watching a Japanese cartoon called Naruto lately. It's become quite an obsession, I love watching the ninjas fight and all. There's one character, Gaara, who happens to be my favorite. He's a really blood-thirsty ninja, who only cares about fighting and killing. His attacks are sand based, and are very very powerful. He's had a really bad past, because of which he's become so evil, but I really like him.
In fact, many of the ninjas have had rough pasts, mostly involving being outcasts, or dropouts, or have demons sealed in them. Gaara and Naruto have demons sealed inside of them, yet the striking difference between the two, one is so evil and quiet and the other so determined and loud. Naruto is a nice character too, I love the fact that he's so determined and never gives up, because of which he can win the most difficult of fights. I also like this other ninja, Rock Lee, who doesn't have any special abilities, but worked hard to get super speed.
I also decided to learn how to play Age of Empires, and have one more tutorial match to play, before I start with real games. It's a much more interesting game than I initially thought it would be. The only thing missing is the blood and guts, but it's good enough without all that.
I've decided that I've wasted enough of my life away doing nothing interesting, and it's about time that I learn to do something worthwhile. This explains my sudden interest in games again, it's been such a long time since I played computer games, and I really miss those days when I would play games all day long (no interesting games, mostly kid games).
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