Answers and Books

Here I am writing much sooner than I intended to. I was thinking I would post again only when I go home.

To: "let me think" - If you have a blog URL or an email address, could you give it to me as it would be easier for me to reply to your comments.

In my last post I deliberately left out the list of my actual problems, and exactly why I want to change. First off, I have no intentions of boring people to death by telling them about my problems, trust me, they're quite boring, and I do have better things to write about than my problems. Secondly, there are certain personal things I would prefer not writing about in this blog, and the fact is that everyone has a personal life. If ever I want to write about any problems I'm going through, I will just write about them.

If you're wondering why I wrote the last post if I had no intentions of writing about my problems, then go back and read the last paragraph. I specifically asked for advice on how I should go about becoming more optimistic and gaining some self confidence...

Anyways, on Facebook I joined a book club - BBC Big Read. I have read quite a few books out of the list of 200 books, and there are a lot of books I want to read. Lord of the Rings topped the list, and I was really happy about that considering the fact that it's my favorite book. There was this one book I had been looking for (which was also on that list), and I finally found it on DC++, The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde. I've already read five chapters, and I'm eager to read more (but with exams just around the corner...).

I had heard about the book a long time ago, when I was reading Oscar Wilde's biography. It was a very controversial book at the time it was written, but now it is considered one of the "Modern Classics". What I love about the book so far is Oscar Wilde's style of writing, it's brilliant the way he describes things and the ideas he puts forth (though I may not agree with them as such). I can't wait till I'll get to finish reading the book, I'm addicted to it.

Books (as in novels) remind me, often I've seen in peoples' profiles that they say "books, no way!", or something along the same lines. Obviously they write that because they think that reading books is not cool, and that only geeks read books. I've always thought it's very stupid of people to not read books because they think that books are uncool. It's a very different matter if someone doesn't have time, or can't sit through a book, but if someone thinks that reading books is not cool, they're just hopeless. Reading is a really good habit, not only because it helps improve language and communication skills, but also because they make one more intelligent and expand one's imagination. According to me, they're very good stress busters as well; just sitting back and reading a nice book always leaves me tension free for a while.

Winds of Change

It's been a while since I've written, more due to a lack of topic than lack of time. Lately, I've been sleeping too much, and obviously haven't been studying at all, so time is definitely not a factor. Exams are just around the corner, and I'm still thinking about how I should start studying (the usual pre-exam "trauma" I pass through every time)...

Yesterday morning, I didn't have class until twelve noon, so I was sitting in my room, trying to analyse my personality. I did find many faults which I will have to correct, and along with that, there are many things about my outlook towards life which I have to change.

Let's say five years ago, you'd imagine yourself as you are now, and you'd think of yourself as a very different person than you became. It's all well and good if you became a better person than you thought you'd become, but if you changed for the worse, then it's always a little sad to think about how you let it happen. I guess I can't say that I've completely changed for the worse, yes, I do have some regrets, but I'm working hard to fix them, but what really bugs me is the fact that certain aspects of my personality changed in a very negative manner. Now it's these particular aspects which I want to work on to better myself as a person.

Now as for my outlook towards life, trust me, it's not a happy outlook. I have got to work on getting more self confidence, and work on becoming more optimistic.

I believe that if I really work on the above things (and I say really, because knowing myself, I'll probably put it off for later...procrastination procrastination...), I should get much closer to the person I wanted to become. Any suggestions on how I can work on the above will be appreciated...